I'm deeply attached to my therapist. I know that we are working on some really fundamental issues that will be long term in nature. It's already been a few years. I feel the attachment is a big factor in being able to work through some of it and I'm grateful for this opportunity.

However, I continue to be unhappy, perhaps, even depressed, considering the amount I cry. My therapist doesn't offer practical advice or steps to help me to move forward with my life. I'm aware the long term stuff is the major blockage but I'd also like to have a personal life with friends and relationships etc. in the meantime. Even if it is difficult. I have neither. It is very difficult to cope week after week on the hope there will be very small shifts over a long period of time. My life does feel as though it is being wasted and I am permanently lonely. I cry so often, but there is no other help for me except therapy it seems. It wouldn't be so bad if it hadn't been years that I've committed to therapy, I've worked really hard and I have seen changes in me, definitely, but, externally not so much.

I'm stuck. There is no one to tell this to, no advice to seek, it feels as though there is no way forward. I've been thinking about trying out a mental health charity to see if there is any support for 'functional' adults. Yet a lot of the groups seem to be in the day when I work so I'm not sure if it is meant for individuals like me. Additionally, I become very anxious admitting I have emotional issues to people I don't know. This needs to be overcome, I understand, but having anxiety attacks just thinking about it makes doing it really hard. I'd almost like someone to help me get to the point of being able to go to a group or generally meet people. Are there people that can offer this type of support?

I often wonder if the therapy I'm in could be supplemented or even if there is one more suited to my needs. But I'm so attached to my therapist, leaving is a very big deal. I've tried to talk about this with my therapist a number of times but we seem to go in circles and I'm left feeling almost trapped. I have to go to therapy because she is the one person I have to talk to, so going to a therapist who is purely practical who doesn't care about me would be a major mistake when I feel this alone still. But I would like other people to talk to beyond my therapist - that would be healthy and 'normal'. Just to give some balance between the pain and daily living.

I'm not sure if such support exists, if it would be available for someone like me, where I'd find it or how much it would cost. I would envisage it would be a short term idea, just to get me started at least. I'm not sure, I'm pretty aware of how desperate I'm getting.