Hi, I can relate to your situation because I also was telling myself that I was fine for a long time. However when I finally sat down and was honest with myself, my counselor and my hubby I realized that I am depressed. There are a lot of online quizzes that can help you to assess your emotional well being. I just started taking Paxil and if I did tell anyone that I was taking it they would be very surprised. It is easier sometimes to just pretend everything is ok rather than facing the issues. I realized that I needed to face things if I wanted things to get better.