I feel EXACTLY the same way. You are not alone in these feelings.
It's so hard to keep trying to define ourselves by external factors, that's why we have to try to find contentment just with ourselves as we are at this moment. At least that's what mindfulness tries to teach
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I am not this hair, I am not this skin. I am the soul that lives within.
Prozac 40mg, Neurontin 400 mg TID, Remeron 45mg
depression, anxiety, borderline, social phobia, ed nos, self injury.