For years I've gotten waves of depression that lasted for a while, but I'd eventually pull out of it. But now it's worse than it's ever been and I don't know what to do about it. I can't even fully explain why I feel like this. I have sat down multiple times and tried to figure out what is making me feel this way but never actually figure it out. Nobody knows, and I can't find the courage to tell anyone. I want someone to notice, because I know the only way I'll be able to tell someone is if they directly ask me. People have mentioned to me a few times that I seem different and less optimistic than usual, but even then I can't bring myself to tell them. It just keeps getting worse and I don't know how to handle it anymore.