Your thread actually prompted me to join the forum, so thank you.

I'm just coming out the back end of a TERRIBLE spiral. I am just recently diagnosed and on meds and can actually have feelings again after many years... spent much of the day on the edge of crying or actually crying, feeling very hopeless and alone, and missing my family and wife very much (recently separated). I actually had a few moments of suicidal thoughts, no action, but that's kind of a new one for me.

The only thing that pulled me out of it was typing up all my feelings, why i'm having them, and really exploring it. Looking at it in words helped me rationalize and point out flaws in my thinking and identify distortions. My episode was trigger related and may be different than yours but just thought i'd share what I did with it today.

I feel much better at this second. I may actually sleep tonight.