hugs!
Know how you feel. When that bed just looks so inviting and you know that maybe, just maybe, if you crawl under the covers it will all go away. But the covers are too thin, it can't block out the world, it doesn't make the feeling go away. Maybe if you sleep it will go away? But then you eventually have to wake up from that sleep. Maybe if you end it all...go to sleep...forever? No, then what about the people you love and care about? Will this ever end? Is there ever going to be a way out??? Where has all the light and happiness gone. What's wrong with me. What did I do to deserve to feel like this. Am I just an incompetent lazy fool?

No. No, you're not. And you CAN do this.
I've found that to-do lists help a lot. But I've also found that I get WAY to carried away when making that to-do list because I can't stop thinking about everything I need to do. And then I can never finish everything. Don't fall into that trap.
Like you said, think of two things to do a day. BUT, then after you do those two things, reward yourself! You earned it! Celebrate!
I believe in you, my friend.
WE believe in you.