I am so sorry you are going through this. I'm going through a similar situation at my job. I've been there for five years and have really been struggling for the past 6 months. I also had a breakdown in front of my boss when she called me out on my work quality, which she wasn't happy with. I dread going to work every day and am constantly looking for a way out. I've been looking for other jobs, but I haven't applied anywhere yet and I also wonder if the added stress of looking for a new job and possibly changing jobs is just making my anxiety worse. I wish I could just take a month or two off to put myself back together, but sadly that bills still have to get paid. It feels like a hopeless, no win situation.

I truly hope you're able to find a solution that works for you. You are not alone.