I hate the fact that coming from tramatic experinces in my past make me 10 times more likely to put people into those stuations myself...it something both me and my boyfriend realize is a sad truth in our lives.

we are living manifisations of ****ed up things that have happened to use before in our pasts. But we both realize ..."those that do not learn from their pasts are doomed to repeat it"
we are both trying as hard as we can to...change how things are for the both us in your lives.
and we have made strides in our lives but we still end up stumbling and falling.....realizing you don't like the person you are and wanting to change...is not an easy thing thats gonna go down right away...but if you want it bad enough it can and will happen.

I just gotta keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel and I gotta not be so hard on myself...when it comes to when I stumble and fall.