Does everyone experience lack of response when asking for help.
I have been mostly stable over the years on my meds. I have managed to stay
Working full time and with the same company for 6 years. The last 2 years have gone progressively down hill. My moods are out of control, I can go up and down multiple times in a day, I have constant negative thoughts, suicidal thoughts, wishing for something bad to happen to me. I cry on and off throughout the day, and usually at times or in places that aren't appropriate. I don't like leaving the house, going to work, or doing anything really. I still do, but it feels like the simplest things take huge amounts of energy and have missed 8 weeks of work since September. I am always so exhausted. I tried to reach out to some friends and they either just say "everything will be fine" or they don't take me seriously, or they listen once and then don't talk to me or follow up for weeks. I feel like I need to be taken care of somehow, like in the hospital and change meds or have someone with me to help me with some of the daily things I can't seem to do. I don't know how to explain to anyone how serious this is, no one is getting it. My anxiety is so high, I am having full body tremors and twitches which has never happened to me before. I don't want to lose my job, I just can't fail at ine more thing.