I have just done the unthinkable. I finally let go.
They returned today, unexpectabtly, as I had secretly hoped. Yet I realised too much has happened, we cannot I back and rewrite the past. It is what it is.

I explained I missed them and I was sorry or my part in it all- which I really am. I didn't completely tell all- but to bring all that up would result in another circle, one of which I cannot do anymore. So I blocked them, it was the last direct contact they had to me. There is no going back this time.
I only wish that they really did love me as much as I loved them. This will never happen. As I have said earlier, with the song choice: "I'm giving up on you"...
Emancipation at last, but freedom comes with a tear; for what we could have been; for what we will never be.
Goodbye my love...