i'm struggling a bit somewhat with everything.

Situation & circumstances are hard. i'm finding it very hard to function on a daily basis. i could go into a lot of it all, but there is so much & it's all a lot to try & explain. My mother has Alzheimers, & my brother is in addiction. i don't have any other family.

i end up just wanting to sit on my own in the flat most of the day, & not do anything. Smoking a lot & spending a lot of time on-line. Has been very much the pattern for the past 9 years.

i feel done in & damaged from everything i have gone through in my life. i've tried everything to follow a healing/recovery path for the past 12 years, & it has all been an immense struggle.

i get confused about this condition, & the schizophrenia diagnosis. i can see everything from many different perspectives. i wish that there was more understanding & support in my life, but there isn't.

It's very hard to continue to try & cope & deal with everything on a daily basis. A lot of different worries, stresses & pressures. Has been such a crazy life. Not a lot that i can do about many things, except just plod on as best that i can.