Well, I went to my first CBT session and I've been told I need a full psychological test because there's a high chance I have other problems. Plus my therapist thinks I may have a learning disability which could explain why I failed maths four times. So I'm getting tested for autism/aspergers too... He's worried about me because of the voices, the blind panic where I mentally disappear and when I return I've hurt myself and didn't know what I was doing, the fact that I bite my thumbs without noticing and the fact that SI is my best coping mechanism when I am in control of my actions. I agreed to it because running from my problems is screwing me up worse than ever. I'm scared... But I'm finished with all of the running. I don't want this to be my reality anymore. My life is hell... I procrastinate too much and life is a daily struggle. I want it to change.