I would feel the same way. As hard as it is you need to be secure in knowing that if he left you then you would be ok. I am financially stable, have a job, and everything I would need if my fiance did leave me. So yes it would hurt emotionally if he left but I would still be able to keep going with somewhere to live and money. I'm not saying that if you can't do this then your worthless so dont think that. Me being able to ahve those things make it that much easier for me not to be worried about if he did leave because it only leads to worse things. Even though I hope and pray he wouldnt leave I still test him to see if he would leave. But time and time again he always stays by my side through all of our fights and me being crazy.

You have a right to be upset about your husband not spending time with you. Just try and talk to him and say you feel upset and see if he will listen. You have to learn to be flexible and go with the flow...my fiance can work on any day of the week and sometimes I dont even get to see him because of our work schedules. But we find time to see each other when he is off and im off or on the weekends. I am needy and I know that. I just try to occupy my time so I can get by knowing I cant see him. But it is very hard. I hope you can find a suitable solution for you and your husband.