Keep talking, keep trying, go to the ER if you must, call your doc, find out if there is a community MHealth center you can go to, call a hot line, make a plan for what you will do Instead when you feel at your worst----it is hard to believe in the moment, but the destructive urges will pass; you probably know now that they come and go, are stronger and weaker, ebb and flow-----And Please let use know that you are OK.