All I've learned is to keep all of my feelings for someone to myself, but have since also found out that I need to learn how to hide those feelings so the other person can't figure it out for themselves. Apparently it's all subconscious so I'm not sure how to learn to control it. I assume it's something similar to having a poker face. Apparently it's smiles that give you away. I don't want to never smile again, but unless I smile all the time, it's difficult to hide smiling at people you like.

And no, I don't want anyone to ever know I like them. If I did, I'd tell them. I don't want my subconscious to give me away because I can't help who I like. I've read articles, but they don't directly talk about the smiling part and I already do most of the other stuff. Maybe I'm too nice to them?

Most of the time I can just avoid them, just in my current situation, I can't. I really don't want to have to find an entire new group of friends and start completely over again. Maybe I never should have reached out for friends in the first place.