My T has recently (last week) had a lump removed. It was a 'quick' in and out under general anaesthetic. She had it done last Thursday and she was expecting to be able to get back to work on Monday (my appt with her was on the Monday).
She had to cancel our appt, and all others for the week I presume, as she is still not well enough to work.

I feel so incredibly selfish for feeling the way that I do, but I am scared. I am scared for her, but more selfishly I am concerned for me

I have been having terrible nightmares about her dying and leaving me alone.
I keep thinking that I don't want to go back to therapy next week in case she tells me its bad news (i.e. the lump is cancerous). I know that makes me selfish, making it all about me me me...I just cant seem to stop it.

She has been texting me on a daily basis to say how she is doing (fine, healing well, feeling stronger etc...she knows I worry about this a LOT), so that is going someway to assure me. But, wow, I have never experienced this level of Anxiety about someone else's health before (except for my children), not even my own!

Not really sure what the point of this is..just curious to see if anyone else has had to deal with something like this, and the fear of your T dying on you?