Seriously…I made a lot of progress in the last few months just to have that all thrown away. It had been since November since I self-harmed, but now I just want to do it all the time. I'm supposed to call one of my friends who know about all of this, but I just can't do it. Mainly because I don't want to be stopped. It's just that even when I do the right thing, I still get screwed. I'm tired of being "nice".