dear abuser, Sometimes I feel as though I'm strong enough to battle anything, but you hurt me. you ruined any chance of happiness. now im looked at as a freak. I don't have a sense of love anymore.
you were my parents at one point..did you ever love me? I can say I loved you. did you ever hug me? cuz I never remember one hug. no one tucked me in, no one cared...and still no one cares. dad, you are and always have been an abusive alcoholic drug addict, though to this day you continue to deny it all. mom, you hit me too! how could you? even after I said I wanted to be EXACTLY like you! well now I don't want anything to do with you or my dad...or my stepdad. you sat and watched him beat me up, cuss at me, throw me against the wall and insult me...hold me down on the ground and force himself on me, you watche dit all and took some sick pleasure in it and never did anything to help me!!!!!!! you said I was a mistake, you never wanted me. so its my fault? and I deserve it? I don't understand any of this, I don't know what to do and none of you are helping me because YOU DONT CARE!!! :'(

dear abuser, I babysat your adorable kids to get away from the terror I lived day by day at my home. I trusted you were there for me, to stand up for me, to protect me. I told you everything. how my parents hit me, yelled at me, beat me to the ground and kicked me, pushed me, sexually, physically, and mentally abused me...and you raped me....how could you?!?! I was 11!! I thought of you as my daddy!!
then you lied until the test proved you wrong. I cant trust anyone anymore personally. it hurts me to think about you, but it seems now that every single day I think about you anyway. I feel sick, useless and have tried to kill myself countless times. im 16 now. I hope you know I blame myself for everything that you did to me. its all my fault. thanks a lot! I hate you! I really really hate you :'(
Here I am sitting telling complete strangers about my life because im hopeless...no one can help me. there's no point in trying anymore right? I mean im only 16, I haven't lived that long, but I feel like life is going to be a living nightmare if I keep living this way...I cant do it anymore. I cant kill myself...im too much a wimp to do that, but idk what to do! is it een possible for me to be happy ever again??