I saw my pdoc last week. I see him every 3 months. We jointly agreed for me to up my medication. Other than that there is nothing he can do.

I saw therapists for years. I did that to death. What they tell me, I can tell myself. I know I am alone too much. I have been all my life. Now that I don't work, I am alone a lot more. I tell myself to go join something. I tell myself and tell myself . . . .