Thanks for the responses, I agree spending time with trustworthy people helps build trust. My Pdoc has never done anything to make me think I couldn't trust him, so trust has been able to develop despite my past history. The bodily reactions I get are just beyond my conscious control though, and it makes me feel bad - like 'Why am I reacting like this, it's Dr T, remember he's the nice guy you really can trust'. I'm going to bring this up in session, because I think it's important to work through. I just don't want to hurt my Doctor's feelings though by saying how I'm responding to certain things - like I think he's going to do the same as the other a-hole who abused me (which he's absolutely not, I know that, but still I don't want to give him the impression that part of me thinks he might, which it doesn't).