Please bear with me, I haven't posted in the forums in years. I'm bipolar and, they keep telling me, BPD (I don't buy that one) and I'm currently in the middle of a vicious depressive episode. I started cutting probably 15 years ago, off and on, and I always found it helpful -- it soothed my moods and made me feel better. Seeing the physical damage helped the emotional pain, for some reason.

And now? It's still the first thing I turn to when I feel horrible, except now it makes me feel *worse.* It makes me angry instead of calm. I don't know how to get around that. A lot of times I just go to bed, but ultimately that doesn't solve anything either.

Has anybody else run into this? How did/do you fix it?

Thanks.