GaSusan,

As you know by now, this is a problem that happens in "all" classes of people. If you can't find an ACOA meeting near you, look for an Al anon meeting. Often what happens is ACOA groups form but they don't show up online etc. You can meet people who will understand your challenge even at Al anon meetings and they may know of an ACOA group that is meeting in your area.

When you go to one of these meetings, you don't have to talk and often the other people try to respect your space too, believe me they know how uncomfortable you may feel, they know it well. The best thing to do is just go and "listen" until you decide you want to talk.

I grew up with a binge alcoholic father, and a binge alcoholic husband, they were both functional. I didn't even know there was such a thing as binge alcoholism. Binge alcoholics can be nice people, but they do have a problem and it does affect others in their families.

You may not have PTSD, however, you may have an acute anxiety disorder that is stemming from living with alcoholic parents. Yes, it can happen in an average middle class family, there are many families that hide this dysfunction quite well too.

(((Hugs)))
OE