Halliebeth, I can totally relate to what you are feeling. I spent most of the summer feeling like that. The total exhaustion of trying all the time. The deadened soul numb and painful and burning at the same time. And just wanting it all to stop and just wanting to be allowed to just fall apart. I hear you! I really contemplated going to the hospital at that time. I didn't know how to do it or what to do and like you I had children that I had to take care of and I did. I scraped myself raw and gave them everything. I didn't go to the hospital but I was very close. If I had not had children I probably would have gone. I am very scared about it but it seems like people are generally positive. I hope you figure something out that works for you. Just keep yourself safe.

But I just wanted to let you know that I heard your words and I felt them. I know that kind of pain. I am so sorry you are in it. I wish we didn't have to feel like this. Hug.