Hi guys,
Thank you for your replies.

I am not in therapy right now. I have been in therapy before. I tend to have a lot of ups and downs. I have felt myself skipping for a while, then around mid-January I crashed. I was fortunate that I got in with a psychiatrist so fast...usually it takes so long. He wants me to read " Mindfulness for Borderline Personality Disorder: Relieve Your Suffering Using the Core Skill of Dialectical Behavior Therapy" by Blaise Aguirre and Gillian Galen. Then I am supposed to go back to do another assessment or something to be actually diagnosed with it.

I am really trying to be objective-not be like a first year psychology student and diagnose myself. I am seeing a lot of things though-a lot of light bulbs are coming of.

There are so many things I never understood about my depression-like why I was so moody-how my mood could change so fast. And why it takes me so long to get over things. And a lot of other things. The psychiatrist said that it could be why I have gone through years of different therapists and medications but still feel this way. I think the thing that probably has brought the symptoms out now is from living with my boyfriend. He's the first boyfriend I have lived with...so I think it's caused a lot of hidden anxiety and made it hard to hide from the symptoms.

Anyway, thanks again for your replies and leading my very long post
Misfit