Hey curiosity77 I agree with what you said. I feel that way too. If meds didn't cut it for me anymore and there was a cure pill sitting there and I was in pain and my family needed me. It would be hard not to take it. But it would not be an easy choice.

Like you I have had this for so long and it has shaped me and I don't know how much of me is me because I am bipolar. If they find a cure I too hope that it would somehow leave me intact.