Last Tuesday T told me she would most likely be having surgery in two weeks (next Tuesday), so she went ahead and scheduled my session for today, since I've been trying to go every other week and every other week would put me on the Tuesday she's having surgery. T told me her or the receptionist would call/email if anything changed. I hadn't heard from T, I considered calling/emailing the office, but was sure they would if anything had changed, so I didn't worry about it and just decided to go to T's office for a session today as scheduled. I got to T's office and asked the receptionist if I still had a session with T and said it was going to be this week instead of next week. The receptionist told me that T is actually having surgery today, but I'm on the schedule for next Tuesday. I'm sure it was a simple mistake, T forgot to tell receptionist to call me, etc, but with the weekend I had I really wanted to talk to her. Part of me also wonders what's wrong with T. I know the type of surgery she was having, but the surgery date for those types of things isn't usually a few days after the appt with the surgeon.

Maybe y'all have some suggestions or can offer some support since T just had surgery. I have a tough time when my roommate is gone for the weekend, etc, which happens to be more weekends than not. I get "hypervigilant", hear more voices than normal, mistake objects, etc. Examples are I was eating some almonds and after I took a bite I was terrified because the half left looked like an evil, I kept thinking some one was in my apartment, heard more voices than usual, became really annoyed by her clock's noises, thought some one was following me on the way to clinicals on Monday and "saw" really strange flashing lights behind me, etc. T knows I have trouble when my roommate leaves, but I've never had this much. Her suggestion in the past was to spend more time with another friend on the weekend, but I usually work til 7pm on Friday and Saturday and am busy most of the day Sunday, so it's not like I have that much alone time. I also feel that I should be able to handle this better. Any suggestions on how to deal with these thoughts and feelings? I've tried listening to TV shows, but since I need to study even just listening to them becomes too distracting. I have an appointment with pdoc in a few weeks, but I think this might be more of a T issue. Sorry this is so long and I'm not even sure if it really fits here, but I wasn't sure where to put it.