Echoes, I get the impression that you are not getting the kind of depth you crave, from your therapist. I can relate to that. A therapist who does not engage with me on that deeeep level, is somehow missing the mark, I leave feeling dissatisfied, a void. And when the t does engage with me on a deeeeep level i feel full, satisfied, fed, nurtured. It does seem you need a warm, caring, nurturing, patient, psychodynamic therapist, I suggest an experienced one. Best of luck to you!