I have a major phobia of gore, blood etc... but until recently, sometimes when I see a graphic photo, I have no response to it. Usually I would turn away and be sickened by the sight, but other times I'm not? Then that image floats around in my head for days or pops up at random times and it makes me cringe the way I should've when I first saw it. Other times I'll think of it but still have no response. I'll start thinking disturbing thoughts with gore, violence and I can't stop it. It interferes when I'm eating (the worst time) or just randomly. Maybe I've overcome some aspects of gore and blood, but I've seen some pretty graphic and horrific pictures where I'll have no response where I'd usually faint or feel sick. And it only happens sometimes, not all the time and it's concerning me.

Not only do I picture graphic images, I've had times where I thought, I could kill that person or I could hurt that person really bad, but I know I wouldn't really do that, because it's not me. I just think how easy it could be, then I feel horrible about it because it's not right, I know it isn't, I never act upon it, but having those thoughts makes me feel like a horrible person.