Reaching out for help is realy hard, but we made it, and it may seem that things.can go better this way. But you have someone to listen to it. I hate to talk like people about how I feel, just my way of seeing things embarassed myself. I can't go around saying I am fading everyday that goes by, the world just seems that its not here, and I'm not sure about myself or anyone else. I think that reaching for help can be painful. But that times I "slap" myself and say. Do this instead don't hear to the thoughts that makes you want your head in the said, to the instinct that makes you smile and say everything is ok, when you don't know already what is wrong with you and why are you like this. It is very painful to talk about in my case at least...everything in your head knows that it will get worst, you're looking to the future and you think if you continue to walk this way there will be no future. I still don't know if someday it will turn to a good one. But you know that first and only people that can realy healp you is your own. But in the long path you know that you have people that cares for you and understand how you feel. I'm to much complicated to understand when you look from outside. I know it, and the ones who can realize that just will do it if you let yourself go. I know that my sister can understand me better right now. And its way better to have someone to calm you down when you're escaping reality. I think for people that feels way to heavy to do some little thing to take care of your own and that sometimes find it hard just to raise an hand pushing your self to do things that will make you feel bad in that time. You have to look inside you and see what in you're past you wanted and what you don't want for you future. It feels good knowing you're not alone. But I think what makes you feel realy good is knowing that people cares, and that you can always search for an hugh or an open understanding smile. Days are just to hard to being lived on your own.