yes I was having flashback so maybe it's normal.
thanks for sharing mtd. you are right, we shouldn't feel guilty. But sometimes it is hard not to. Think you have a good point about us having needs just like with physical illnesses. Very few people who don't know about these things understand that.
I also write it down like you do and it does help me to understand why I do what I do.
I never lash out verbally at people though, maybe I should learn to use my mouth more.