First off I must say that I'm not a person who follows astrology or checks my horoscope.
I just went to my Yahoo home page to check my emails. The first thing that caught my eyes were the first 3 words of my horoscope for the day: "defy expectations today". The horoscope in it's entirety was:
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Defy expectations today -- it's easy! All you have to do is take one step away from your routines and people are sure to pay attention. Once you're front and center, say what's on your mind.
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I realized at that moment one of the things that I have been incorrect about in my approach in therapy sessions. I have gotten in the routine of just sitting there and basically listening to my therapist talk about different things that I'm sure he thought would be helpful at the moment. I basically never speak except in response to a question. That has been the therapeutic relationship for 3 years now. I always leave disappointed that I didn't talk about what was really bothering me at the time, and when I did I felt like I was not being understood.
I think maybe after a T has seen a person act in a certain way/ say certain things for such a period of time, the actions/words begin to lose their importance. I think my silence has sort of become that way. He now just sees it as "the way that she is" and not that I'm in any kind of distress.
I think when I see him again tomorrow I'm going to try a different approach. From the minute I walk into his office, I'm going to be really assertive and say "okay, I really need to talk today". I think if I'm able to get up the courage to do that he will definitely see that how I'm feeling is really serious. If he doesn't react accordingly, I think I will know that he might not be the T for me.
Not sure why I'm posting this. Just thought that someone else might find some value in it.