You sound angry at your old T and are taking it out on your new T. Although it's totally okay to be angry at old T, you have to be able to place the anger where it belongs. If you continue to pretend that it's about new T, it will never go away. I know you probably don't feel comfortable being angry at old T, but you do definitely sound angry. This is something you can bring up with new T and have her help you through it.