I thought I had decided to keep my next appointment, but apparently am still waffling, because I immediately thought "if I tell t I want to cancel and then say thanks for everything see ya never" I will be accused of creating drama. And maybe that's what I would be trying to do, who knows. this whole thing is so darn complicated sometimes and it does not need to be. I don't like drama either - I don't want people looking at me, etc. would rather fade into the woodwork - so me doing this drama-y thing is out of character. I better just keep the appointment eh?