I relate to your post but I can't figure out exactly how or why - if that makes sense! I am sorry you are going through this, it sounds very similar to my situation and I am constantly trying to be the good client and remain within her (very rigid) boundaries. I saw her yesterday and for the first time in 10 months I felt a real connection, that maybe she does care for me? But then I doubt myself and worry. This all came about because of my twisted thinking she calls it. Where I interpret something incorrectly. I am consumed with worry - I often text her which originally she wasn't happy about but recently she has said it is ok for me to do and she erasures me that she is not angry with me. I fear her leaving me and I fear her being angry or disappointed with me so much so that I am doing things for her to please her - like going to the gp - just to make her pleased with me. It feels very child like and I am really confused about what is going on. Like I said, I feel a connection with your post very strongly.

For what it's worth,I would send the email I think. It will give her. Time to think it over before you next meet.

Good luck and keep posting. Xx