Thanks to CBT and mindfulness, something new occurred to me today. I seem to have acquired the perception that I have a halfway decent mind stuck in an embarrassingly useless and pathetic body that ought to be beaten daily until morale improves (speaking metaphorically only!). I didn't always think this way, I am sure of that. I didn't always look in the mirror and feel a sense of acute embarrassment and find myself unable to make eye contact with my own reflection.

There seem to be triggers for this kind of thinking. My physical self-image appears to have become the repository for bad feelings due to bullying, rejection, and real or perceived personal failures and frustrations. There are a number of subtle things going on here over time. I am not quite sure how to approach this problem.