Thank you all so much for replying. It's a relief that I'm not the only one to have this bittersweet experience at times. I love my therapist lots, so then I felt a bit guilty for having these mixed feelings, at managing to be sad when receiving so much care and love from her...but I suppose what's sticking out a mile for me today is that it really isn't anything to feel guilt about, because it's nothing to do with her. It's all about other people, and grieving my losses.

Oh, and thank you for the birthday wishes!