Even if I'm just recording something for people online, I struggle with the anxiety, and it causes me to screw up something chronic. Air on G String on the acoustic guitar, is something that takes considerable accuracy and concentration, but I keep ballsing it up almost every time I go to record it. :\

I made only one decent recording, just now, but the camera was in the wrong place! Thoroughly pissed off (more like: very angry, with myself) with my stupid ****ing brain, right now. Please tell me I'm not the only one here who struggles with anxiety issues that seep out into their music.

Having OCD ("perfectionism") is not exactly doing me any favors, either! I hear a mistake and it feels like something huge and noticeable, that I'll be judged by that one mistake, and then it makes me feel like that piece I played/recorded is worthless. People often tell me they don't notice, but I notice, and that's enough for me.

My anxiety is why I left a band some years ago, and have turned down any other opportunities - I can't even consistently record something properly, without getting really anxious and ballsing things up, so going on stage, or performing in-front of a smaller crowd, is hardly an option.

I can hear every single mistake that I make; it resounds so clearly in my ears and it gets on my nerves. I forget to breathe, my chest gets tighter, heart-palpitations, and so on, are possible. All I can think about is, "don't screw up" and "when's the next screw-up?" It's more like an obsession, sometimes.