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Originally Posted by AmyFed07
I saw one of my therapists on Tuesday night, and for the first time ever went over our session by 30 minutes. Thankfully I'm her last session and at night, so it wasn't a big deal. However I have never had a therapist keep me past my appointment for stating that I was still highly anxious and had the urge to go home and cut. She had me sign a note saying I would try 5 things before, and I probably got through 2-3 before I gave in. I don't see her until Thursday night, I see a T on Tuesday morning for IOP, and on Wednesday night with my husband joining me. I know I'll probably end up cutting again by her next session bc of how anxious I am about starting IOP and having my husband with me. I'm worried about telling her next time I see her given this weeks session.
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I'm thinking that maybe, that was a good thing that she made you stay in the therapy room (or wherever you do therapy). If she would have let you go, you probably would have self-harmed by whichever means that you do it by, and she didn't want to release you if she knew that you had self-harm intentions. Your husband, however, in my opinion, maybe watch you a bit closer than he does, so that he can keep tabs on your recovery from this.
I don't know what happened to make you want to self-harm, but whatever it was, it's probably over now, and you should start to feel a bit better about it. If it's something that lasts a long time (i.e. someone else you know self-harming, and you're worried about them), different story.
I hope that this helps...