Making me feel loved isn't the only thing that matters…there's also making me feel not good enough for love to be reciprocated. But he's dated plenty of other people so they were good enough. There's obviously more to it than that…. It's just that I'm in the wrong place in my life for him and anyone else like him. So I won't get to experience feeling loved again for years because I'm always going to be in the wrong place in my life for anyone worth knowing. I guess it's a crime now to be a late bloomer and not have a lot of life experience in your teens and early twenties. It's bad if they know you're a virgin…I really should have learned this by now, but I really need to make sure people don't know I'm a virgin from here on out.