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Originally Posted by So It Goes
I suffered from childhood and adult abuse. I'd be more specific but I can't open up about it yet. I never feel "safe" anywhere, or have the feeling of "home". No matter where I am, I am hypervigilant and am constantly tense. I have been dealing with these feelings mostly on my own.
I've tried to at least construct a place of safety in my bedroom, as devoid of electronics or any triggers as possible, yet I still can never let my guard down. It has varied in severity over the course of my life, but it's worse when I'm alone lately. It doesn't make a lot of sense. Does anyone here have any insights?
Thanks.
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Thank you for speaking out about this - I was just thanking a friend of mine for connecting with me in a way that made me feel safe, and I think since you and I feel unsafe most of the time, we notice when that fear is lifted, if only for awhile.
I have two small dogs at home, and their companionship has made a huge difference in my life. I don't really like leaving my home, but I do so in order to walk "Will and Grace". Along the way we meet other dogs and owners (and I used to cross the street in order to avoid people) and I have slowly felt more safe around unfamiliar people and places. But in small doses
Also, I tend to be more concerned with the pups' well-being and comfort than my own (typical, right) so they help me "get out of my own way" in order to give them the care they deserve. Sounds ludicrous, doesn't it? Don't we deserve this kind of care? Of course we do...and two small rescue dogs have certainly rescued me right back.
Let us know how you're doing.