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Originally Posted by Readytostop
I got very anxious just reading your post... It would make me very uncomfortable...
My T and I were talking about Gestalt therapy when he was singing praises about group therapy and he said he'd love to do group and I asked what about gestalt and he said that would be very hard on him and it would be very challenging for him to do empty chair work but it probably shows he should do it.
but just as an outsider.... I am very shut down emotionally about past abuse... I don't talk about it with any feelings... although I can say logically that it was sad and yes I would be sad for another child if it were happening to them now...blah blah blah.. but I don't feel it for me nor do I get outwardly angry at my abusers... and Im not sure that I will ever be able to do that without being pushed...
so whether you like your T and her methods... might not be what you base decisions on...maybe you should ask yourself... can this T take me to where I want to be? (of course this is so much easier to say to someone else than it is to do for myself )
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Thanks ready, I appreciate your input.
We sound very similar as I also shut down about past abuse and find it very difficult to acknowledge my emotions let alone own them or get them out. She said that therapy is a safe space for me to explore me emotions with her but I can't. It would feel too forced. She is on the right track and she has been from the start , this is only my second session with her but she has a great sense of what I need already. She started this week by saying she wanted to acknowledge all of my hurt and pain I have been through and I suppose that was nice of her. I think that maybe she is too close already and it scares me because i want to run for the hills.
I was telling her about my mum yesterday when she said, you knew back then that your mother wasn't treating you well.. all you needed was a hug and to be told that you were loved. When she said that i don't know how to react so i say nothing and she asks what's happening to me and even I don't know because I just want to run.
Anyway ready, Thank you for sharing that
