I wish you could find the confidence to tell us more because I want to listen. I think I can relate, I get so angry at my therapist sometimes as she makes me feel she cares then asks me to leave. It hurts me. I'm guessing I have to hold on to the fact she cares but this is so hard to do when i'm away from her.

I've learnt people don't like it when I ask for constant reassurance, but with a therapist it's the one place we have the right to ask and check out our anxieties which can be so high most of the time! In time i've found myself 'knowing' my therapist cares so I don't need to ask so much...still leaves me confused why I feel pain though but that's a different issue! What happened when he said he was mad at you? What was your reply? My therapist said the same thing once, except I don't think she said she was angry at me but was simply angry. It hurt me a lot but I realised she was owning her feelings and they weren't something I needed to fix or help her with. In the end it was better she was honest because then I could be too.

I can imagine there are a fair few bad therapists out there so I feel for you. It isn't your fault. Can you find recommendations?