I was on the Honor Roll in high school. Now I'm lucky if I get a C. I rode my horse every day after school weather permitting. Now I find myself struggling to even get to the barn. I had a lot of friends in high school. Now I tend to wait for theatre shows to roll around for some social interaction.

I don't think looking back and trying to find the origin helps. When I do, I just end up crying myself to sleep every night. The fact of the matter is, we have a chemical imbalance in our brains that causes us to feel hopeless, tired, and downright crappy. So now I fill this emptiness with hopeful thoughts of the future, even if they're the extremely near future. Like right now, I can't wait for the snow to melt and spring to come so that I can take a trail ride with my horse.