Nobody can tell for sure. You are right. However, it saddens me to think you will never try again because of the pain you have endured.
I am sorry, you have been hurt -nobody deserves it, but the idea is to look for the lessons so that your next attempt will hopefully have a better outcome.

Q: knowing then what you know now, would you have fallen? Wasn't all the pain worth all of the joy. It couldn't have all been bad, or you wouldn't have fallen in the first place.