Thank you ((AK))....i sat this morning crying..wanting a way out of this confusing nightmare...i started writing and ended up writing a 3 page letter to my bio mother...i told her she has 3 wonderful grandchildren and that though we shared somethingn so special, life, we never knew each other...I told her I hoped she didnt drink for the rest of her life and that i hoped if she thought of me it didn't hurt her...i told her we all make mistakes in life just that i'm a mistake that wanted to know her...i felt close to her writing this letter..i felt all the yrs i've denied myself these feelings toward her...i think shes dead now but i think maybe somehow she knows i wrote this letter..