I don't know what to do. Theoretically I can function. I go to lectures, do the work expected of me, socialise and get decent grades. But I feel so empty. When I'm with people I'm just playing a part, when I'm not I feel like everything is pointless. I can't seem to leave scabs or any kind of mark on my skin alone, to the point where I now can't wear shorts or low necked tops, and regularly debate getting a fringe to hide my forehead. My latest method (which worked at first to an extent) is trying to replace the compulsion with the only other thing I've come across which can occupy my thoughts to the same extent; calorie counting. But as the novelty is wearing off it occupies my thoughts less and less and just seems to be starting to be just another obsession. Whether I will lose control of that one too I don't know, but I don't want to stop as it is still having some replacement effect.
I feel like I have no identity - I don't have specific things I like in the same way other people do - there are plenty of things I like (or used to like) or am interested in but none are "favourites", all are things I can take or leave. I don't know who I am or where I want to be - everyone else seems to have such a clear idea of these things. I'm not close to anyone at university despite being almost half way through my second semester here - it's like I just can't make connections. All I know is that I don't want to drop out, but it's getting to a point where I feel I might have to do something just to make staying alive feel worthwhile.
I don't know what to do