Patty,
The good thing is you have made progress since when you started. It is great that you're working on improving via therapy, although right now you may not be feeling good.

I had many failed relationships before I got into my current relationship with a woman which is very satisfying. As long as I was severely borderline, it was difficult to successfully carry on an intimate relationship of any length. But now that I'm not longer BPD (which is possible, contrary to what you find in some places online), relationships are still not easy, but they are much more doable than before.