I guess I'm saying that I don't feel anything from it. I feel a lot more from being held/cuddled which is surprising that I enjoy at all. It did take a while hugging the same person to actually enjoy it or feel anything from it and now I feel too much and have to back way off from them.

What I'm saying, in my very limited exposure to intimate contact, kissing is different to me as I'm realizing that it's not intimate. And it has nothing to do with how close I am to the dude either, because I've kissed guys I felt close to and making out was the antithesis of intimacy—it drove us apart. I don't seem to have any positive feelings about making out—they all seem to be negative or neutral.