I keep getting images of cutting my wrists open. Everytime I try to switch off or stop what I'm doing these thought and images will fill my mind. And I find it impossible to shake them. I should be asleep now but I closed my eyes and saw blood. I saw myself doing it.

I don't get it because I actually feel pretty good right now. I haven't cut since the start of the year.

I'm considering just taking some pills to knock myself out for a bit....