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Old Feb 26, 2007, 09:10 AM
Smilie Smilie is offline
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It looks like you have taken you first baby step to self awareness. As painfully and sad as it may be.
Ask yourself if you trust him. Ask yourself why do you feel empty . Ask yourself why can't your husband give the hug you so much feel deprived of.Do you love this man and has he become just a stranger in your bed? Has he kept you at arms length and have you with held from him emotionally?Ask yourself why do you stay in this marriage.Is it out of religion, loyalty shame, embarrassment, fear of being alone,because this is what is familiar to you? Finding the answers to these questions is only a small mile stone to your new journey if you choose to take it and choose to be honest to yourself. There is no quick answer to your question; but the many questions answered over time will ultimately give you your answer.
Let me tell you a little about myself. I was married for 15 years but I was not honest with myself. We both wore masks and I was very lonely and love deprived. I have 4 daughters now and have been divorced for 2 yrs and living single for almost 6 years. It has not been a easy journey but it has been a well worth one.

I ask myself if you feel your love for your husband dying inside of you as I did.And are you being provoked to feel this way by his actions toward you.
hugs to you Smilie